Should I try to get my ex boyfriend back?

First of all I am so happy that you are seeing a counselor and talking to them about what you're going through. I have been in an extremely similar situation as you. I know it feels like there is one huge mess going on inside your head and you don't know what to feel but here is the truth... Whether you want to believe it or not he is not the one for you. Many go through turbulent relationships like this when we are growing up. He is cheating on you, maybe not physically yet, but emotionally. More importantly he is bringing out the worst in you, making you angry. Making you so confused and worried that you wonder if you should be taking back a guy that would cheat on you. If it were meant to be it wouldn't be this hard. My ex treated me the same way and I went crazy checking his messages. Then I realized I needed to be with someone that I could trust and feel secure and happy with 100% of the time. I stayed with him longer than I should have only because I let my pion and our memories blind me for what was really going on. Please don't waste your precious life being angry, please find people that will make you smile. And remember you are not alone, their are so many broken hearts out there right now... but in a couple years you will look back and laugh at how silly it was that you were with someone like that. You will think "I could have never married him... could you imagine if we had kids?... what a mess my life would have turned into." Keep hold of the light at the end of the tunnel. xoxo